Outsiders may think being a celebrity is glamorous. Millions of people adore and clamour for you. Rui En explained that fame is a hollow thing.
“Whether the reason was that I grew up in a home where everyday felt like a battle, or whatever other deep-seated origin, for as long as I remember, I was plagued by feelings of unworthiness. I pursued fame to try to overcome those feelings after I was signed and discovered. If everyone loved me, then I must be wrong. What I discovered was that fame didn’t alleviate those feelings, conversely, it created an even bigger black hole of emptiness. Ever felt alone in a club? Surrounded by people having the best time and yet feeling completely alone? That’s exactly what it feels like.”
Rui En shared an explanation from an article she had read and how her mirror exercise (from point 1) might have helped.
“The closest explanation I’ve come across is by Chris Hayes of The New Yorker. He explained that recognition is something that all humans want. Recognition can only come from people we respect and value. So fame in other words, can only give us attention, since it comes from people we don’t know. Yet it “feels close enough to real human connection that we cannot but pursue it in ever more compulsive ways”.
Yes, it is possible to feel unworthy and loved by many people. I don’t need to list the icons who have succumbed to this. I have to say that mirror exercises have been a life-changer for me. Simply saying affirmations aloud has helped me quiet my critical, scolding voice. So happy to hear that many are trying it together with me for the first time!”
Source: Her World