Britney Spears continues to speak her truth after her 13-year conservatorship. In a long Instagram post posted December 27, Britney Spears shared her heartfelt message to fans about her family and faith, her feelings about music, and her insecurities.
On the matter of her family, Britney—who has opened up about her treatment by her father Jamie Spears, her mother Lynne Spears, and her sister Jamie Lynn Spears in the recent past—reiterated how “hurt” she still feels by their actions. Jamie petitioned Britney to pay his legal fees even though he was removed from his daughter’s conservatorship. “I had an experience three years ago where I stopped believing in God,” Britney wrote in the sixth slide of the post. “From every angle, I was being hurt for no reason and my family was hurting me…I went into a state of shock and the way I coped was being fake denial…it was too much to really face. It then came full circle and my heart took over and I was a lion.”
The “Baby One More Time” singer further opened up about why she originally felt she should stop making music—and hinted that she may choose to start again. Britney says she “asked for 13 years to perform new music” and remixes of her own catalog, but was refused by those who were in control. “I knew exactly what I wanted my fans to see and it didn’t make sense how network television shows are showcasing my music with remixes of all my music…yet the person who owns the music is told no,” Britney wrote. “They even gave remixes to my sister but why was I always told no?”
Britney chose to get out of the music business altogether. “So much wasted time to only embarrass me and humiliate me and I guess it seems odd to most now why I don’t even do my music anymore,” she wrote, adding, “People have no idea the awful things that were done to me personally…and after what I’ve been through, I’m scared of people and the business!!!! They really hurt me !!!!!! Not doing my music anymore is my way of saying ”Fuck You” in a sense when it only actually benefits my family by ignoring my real work…it’s like I’ve subconsciously let them win.”
Britney wants to move forward. “Last year was growth for me…I still have a ways to go,” Briteny wrote in slide seven. “My goal for this year is to push myself a bit more and do things that scare me but not too much I mean geez!!!! We are people, and I am not a superwoman. But I do know what makes you happy and brings you joy. I try to meditate on those thoughts and places that help me experience it
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Source: Glamour